His Savior

He never knew what it was like; to be what he always wanted to be was unfathomable. He had never not been nit picky and aware. He, himself, had known this along with everyone else. People said he was 'too aware for his own good,' but of course he knows this. It's another fault of his, another curse. He was so sure everything about him was no good. No matter what happened, what he tried to do, he couldn't shake the thoughts off. He only found a peaceful, euphoric bliss while he was asleep or with him. Alec Varez. He was an escape, he was everything good. He never doubted when they were together. And if he ever did doubt anything, anything at all, Alec would always get through to him and give him reassurance that it will all be okay. He could make the bad thoughts good. Zach could only experience love around Alec. To him it was new, but it was also very, very good.